Sometimes…

Sometimes full-on sunshine,

Sometimes, soaking rain.

Usually it’s somewhere in the middle

Some clouds with sun in between.

Some days are pure fun and laughter

Some days I can’t open my eyes

Usually it’s somewhere in the middle

Ups and Downs and compromise.

I don’t know what will happen

I can’t predict tomorrow

But I can trust and let go

Into the inevitable changing flow

Of the Power of Life

The Connection of Breath

The Clue of Emotions

My Own GPS.

It’s gonna be scary, and wild and fun

A little bit sad, a lot undone

I’m gonna live this life as real as I can

Diving deep and unfolding my Soul’s loving plan.

JenoftheSun

I See You

I see you
Peeking from your rubble
I hear you
Whispering my name
I wonder
How long you’ve been Waiting
To tell your story
To ease your pain?
I know you
Your voice is just like mine
I feel you
Aching but alive
How about
I let this gray wall crumble?
I am with you
Weapons by my side.
I am you
Your pain is loud and clear
I hold you
The dark, the light, the fear
What if
We surrender to the magic
I’ll bet we cry.
I’ll bet we fly.
JenoftheSun

How High a Fence?

Just when I think I’m safe

An unknown part of me crumbles.

Just when I think

“I’ve got this”

The big world

Laughs out loud.

 

There is no perfect haven

Only me, in my skin,

Right now.

There is no magic home plate…

Try dancing on a cloud?

 

How high a fence

Will I build

Surrounding my silly heart?

What illusions

Must I shatter

Before all of life is allowed?

 

jenofthesun

 

 

Who Am I?

I am the wonderer

the hypocrite

the dreamer of dreams,

I am the salesman

the therapist

the shopper

the thief.

I am the listener

the lover

the teller of tales,

the witness

the hater

the student who fails.

I am the defendant

the lawyer

the judge and the jury.

I am the victim

the criminal

the sentence, the mercy.

I am you.

And I am not you.

I am me.

jenofthesun

I am the House

How dark is my shadow

How deep is my sigh

Am I willing to sit in it

Without asking why?

Will I let myself feel

Whatever comes up

Or will I change the channel

To more comfortable stuff?

What’s in there. I’m scared.

My mind wants to know.

Don’t push. Relax.

Drop in. Let if flow.

I am the living room

I am the kitchen

I am the basement, the closets,

The new addition.

I am the house

From before my birth

Playing hide and seek

The prize is my worth.

 

jenofthesun

 

Be the Love.

Whatever this moment brings,

See how awake you can be.

Whatever rollercoaster you are on,

See if you can let yourself enjoy it.

Whatever is bringing you the information of your life,

Know that there is more to know,

And it is all there somewhere, even if you never know.

Get super quiet with you.

Listen to the flow of your body.

Breath in deep gratitude for this crazy journey.

Breath out the sam, but ever-changed thanks.

Be the Love that you already are.

jenofthesun

I am a Damselfly…

I am a damselfly

Attracted to shiny things

Skimming the flickering lake of life

Looking for nourishment

Loving to fly.

I am a damselfly

Cold-blooded and Seeking Light

Flaunting my prism of colors

Half spirit, half dragon

Floating in between.

I am a damselfly

Stunning and hideous

Startling the world into wonder

Prehistoric modern mystery

Waiting for Summer.

jenofthesun

 

 

When.

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When do we grow
All the way into ourselves
Like the caterpillar that can fly?

 

When do we settleĀ 
deeply into the now
Like the Buddhist monk on high?

 

When are we okay
With who we truly are
And what has to die before that happens?

 

Tragic flaws and Santa Claus
Will not lead me astray.
I surrender fully
to the story of today.